finally back to bloggin.

today rly nth to say. a rly 'happening' day for me.

1st point to note, i cried in class in morning. it's sooooo wtf for me.

i was controlling and controlling, and when the 1st tear dropped,

dats it.

i cant stop it anymore.

i was practically kinda disappointed, sad and oso confused..

well, i rly dun bother to type much here, but i think,

katy prerry song "Hot n Cold" rly relates to me and my frenships..

i wonder...

being treated vry gd at times, but being treated coldly at another times....

and this cycle continues... i wonder,

if im overly sensitive or overly worried,

OR

i think everyone wif human being feelings wud feel the same as i feel...

haiz..

im happy wif my class, i love my class, but sometimes, it's just so hard on me to bear it.

well, i dun wann any politics,

so, i tried to control my emotions and at times, HECK care abt it.. i dun wanna hold any grudges...or hold any hard feelings.

i prefer to trust as always, tho im hurt by it multiple times too..

i fervently wish no one had seen me crying in class, except for one person,

a fren who was sitting beside me.

he's a gd fren, rly. i rly appreciate and feel grateful for him to accompany me when im alone today.

of cos, becos of dat, alot of teasing is made.. but well, i try not to be bothered by it, cos i rly dun wan this kinda silly joke to affect all my frenships.

i was feeling rly rly lonely and sad. but of cos, trying my vry best not to show it.

i wanna hide it all away. but i noe dere's alot of gd frens around me too.

and i love melodee lotssss.

she's the best. her encouraging words and advices always helped me thru..

i rly rly cant imagine how i deal wif my sch life without her words and her..

sad and happy times.

i rly am scared to one day show all my feelings out.. it's like spilling out..

sad and confusion.

but well, so long as dere's no hard feelings on me, or any bad things happen, i think i can deal wif it..

tho the cold and hot feelings my frens were showing me do hurt alittle.