life after xmas isnt rly gd.

xmas day was kinda boring for me,

plus, it doesnt help when today i had to go for another gathering with relatives which i dread alot.

i srsly dun wanna go.

i feel damn irritated wif my maid agn, yes agn.

she totally has no repect for me at all.

i toked to her asking her qn, she dun wanna ans me,

and take a long time to ans.

which im quite dulan to wait for her ans.

well,

it's nth much i guess. just dat, small unhappy things are piling up.

i wonder when my happiness could come to me.

cos it seems every little random unhappiness are visiting me instead of happiness.

wanna be happy agn.

wanna smile more and not crying inside.

it's also hard to hold feelings for someone.

which is y i always try to avoid having feelings for someone,

but all failed as usual.