after a big hoo-ha, a big emotional and cried hard day,

i instantly felt sososo much lighter. and happier?

it's like, at least i've cried it all out, let it all out.

well,

so much lighter and now, i can think alittle straight. i dun say im waiting for him or will wait for him

to grow his feelings for me back,

but more of like, still try to stay close to him if i can.

and during these future days dat im gonna spend wif him, things can change, tho i do not noe change into wad.

and i wud use the chance of these times, to let my feelings settle itself wif time.

either it fades away, or i'll find another better guy?

or maybe the small possibility he'll like me agn? which i wish for it for now.

but,

time will tell.

i still trying to struggle believing in this:

wads meant to be urs is urs. no matter how hard, long or impossible, it'll find its way back to u.

if not, den dere's no point and maybe im meant to be wif other guys.

for now, he is just one of my many possibilities dat i might end up wif,

dat he belong with me.