argh, sometimes i hate to be a gal. lol..

im late for my gal's thing yet when it's time, it's like, coming atlittle at a time, den i had kinda mild nausea. like suddenly at anytime had the feeling puking alittle.. and now cramp.. haiz..

well, control.

have to tahan.

and well, i've finally been able to tok to him... which i initially thought i wun or will nvr speak to him..

it's like wadeva happens, is so mixture of coincidence or rly sudden..

i dunno wad to react. srsly..

haiz..

i just read melodee's quote abt dere are always worst people gng thru worst things den me..

so it made me feel im lucky in a sense..

!@# #%$^

now oso in a sense, it' scary too.

cos if im sad, den sad..

wad im feeling now is nth?

to be precise, i DON'T even have the slightest idea of what SHOULD i feel,

or

what I'M feeling NOW.

no definition for it, no idea at all..

like.. wth..?

i cnt say im fine and i cnt say im not fine either...

am i gng crazy..?

argh.

and what im doing now is ironic.

i hope i wun regret it.

and i hope im doing the right thing before i regret it......