since now i quite 'free'

cos im not doing anything, which i supposedly have something to do.. lol..

anyways, i think i just admit lah, im despo. zzz

2012 is like getting to me.

ok. before i continue, i must make some points clear dat,

im NOT any avid believer of the malayan religion nor the rumours of 2012..

im just thinking as an overall thing,

like how the earth one day sure will end or be destroyed...

even to those non god believers, hello, even there's NO god,

the earth will still sooner or later de destroyed, why?

US. becos of HUMANS.

i think even without the stepping in of GOD, the earth will soon be gone becos of us..

wads wif all the waste anr rubbish, smoking... CFCs.. blah blah.. most horrible thing is animal abuse... those sick bastards killing animals for fun.. and not to say, human target each other too..

ok. back to my main point, oso, even if the earth is not destroyed, i may not noe when my life will end.

altho choy. but we dun rly noe..

i rly dun wanna die without again experiencing love... :/

some ppl care more of their freedom, some ppl care more abt career, and some ppl just heck care everything, well, for me, i care abt relationships with everyone and love.

i belong to that category.

maybe i shud attribute all these reasons to my paranoid erm, feelings which always jumbles up.

well, ~~

wanna end here. but i dunno. i so random... and just wanna random throw my thoughts out here. haiz.. i shud just stop thinking so much and just relax.. tho i cnt sometimes.. cos now,

im like gng thru some troubles too. testing my loyalty, faithfulness, and my so called 'not-so-good' side...

tho i have everything in control, but i cnt help it sometimes.. to feel dat way.. dun wanna elaborate here.. but yeah