in anyways, holidays started, but it sucks.
y?
cos the sch ended in quite an awkward situation for me.
i miss it.
somehow,
i always wonder.
is my tears so worthless dat it would always welled up whenever im angry or sad.
so long as it's extreme emotions, i'll teared up.
but wads rly frustrating is, i always dun rly noe how to portray myself.
ppl say just be myself. but the thing is, sometimes i duno rly noe how to be myself either.
i can take jokes well, and maybe any jokes. yeah.
but sometimes, maybe it's becos i have very low confidence of myself or wad,
i tend to feel ppl jus take me for granted.
sometimes, they make jokes to me as if i'll nvr be hurt.
ok. well, i've seen they joke around to so much more ppl around, but still,
if they wan, it's the real me;
sensitive and low confidence.
i sometimes felt alittle too much but dare not to voice out, not wanting to be labelled as cant take jokes and well, so serious, petty etc.
somehow, i had problems voicing this out, even if i do, which kinda alot of times,
things are gonna repeat itself.
i dunno, but i guess i have to deal wif it.
im ok and totally fine wif jokes, jus dat sometimes it hurts me or set me thinking y.
it rly fustrates me dat y am i so emotional and easily teared.
this is rly hate it to the core, wif gurantee.
well, obviously i wun go crying around or cry aloud lah, but just have the feeling,
if rly extreme cnt control, den it falls.