i almost broke down jus nw.
well not out of tears, not out of loneliness, not anything dats typical...
but jus i hate it alot. this feeling.
a feeling dat cant rly decsribe properly into words.
surrounded by gd ppl/frens, but i jus dun like it..
i've been alone too long or wad.. even i want to rant here but i cnt..
cos i dun even noe how to put into words..
it's just hard.
worst form of loneliness is not when u are alone. but when u are surrounded by ppl but cnt even open up myself or feel comfortable at all.
but yet, nt wanting them to misunderstand.
dat is, ppl always think im lonely or quiet, in fact i actually prefer being alone rather
den surrounded by a large grp of ppl dat i usually have nth to tok abt.
somehow, i cnt rly tell ppl properly abt this, even i tell,
either they dun get it, dun believe or jus huh..?
or even better, having words like emo coming to me.
yeah, im emo. yes. but well wads their definition of emo?
self mutilations? being alone? negative thoughts?
for me, i wan to be alone. yes. a.l.o.n.e.
negative thoughts? nt rly.. argh..
i dun wish to lose many gd frens too, but somehow, i jus cnt always hang out
often wif them and being smiley around them..
jus too tiring.. i need something..
but it's out of my reach